Friday, January 29, 2010

Drunken phone calls...or I mean...SLEEP TEXTING

So apparently I text in my sleep! This is so embarrassing...I totally sent AUSTIN a text last night and I didn't even know it till just NOW! It wasn't a short I miss you or I'm thinking about you text either it was a little longer than that. I'm embarrassed to even write what I said to him! It's not like I can just call him or text him and say hey sorry about last night I was SLEEPING. haha, He would never believe me and he'd probably be more irritated that I was contacting him (again). Oh well I guess, what can ya do?

Since his name has already come up, let me just say that I freakin MISS that guy! It's taken a long time for me to be able to even look at a picture of us or him with out crying. (Is that pathetic?) Anyway, since I'm moving soon I'm cleaning things out and organizing things and I love looking at pictures of us! It's so fun and it still stings a little bit, but a few times this month I have found myself just thinking about something him and I did together and I just laugh and laugh. I had a dream a couple of weeks ago and I won't go into detail because my dreams have TONS of detail, but basically him and I were friends. My dream felt so real and it was so fun talking to him and being friends again. In my dream he had a girlfriend and we talked about her, we talked about school, work, friends, my dates, his dates, and it was so nice. I woke up the next morning feeling so good like I had just talked to my old friend. Totally loved it!

Ok, I'm done. Leaving the past in the past....ready go!

Seriously though, I'm a little nervous about the sleep texting thing. Sheesh! At least I cleaned my phone out last week and deleted a bunch of numbers from my phone.

Ps Austin's number has not been in my phone since June or something, I have it memorized, that means I had to type in his whole number before I sent that text! Alright, I'm good now, done trippin.

Happy Weekend!!

Monday, January 25, 2010

Having an Impact on others

Sunday was a great day! Sacrament meeting was probably the best its ever been in that ward. I sat out of Sunday school because I was chatting and trying to get help for the activity I'm planning for the ward this week. As I was sitting in the cultural hall a girl in jeans carrying a baby in his car seat walked up to the church doors. I looked up and saw that there were two girls, I knew them both but only recognized one of them. They are sisters and both inactive members of the church. I had talked to them a lot, and fellowshiped them during the time I was pregnant. The one without the baby opened the door and said "There's Amber", the other girl (I'm trying not to use names, hope you're following me) walked up to me and gave me a hug. We started talking, I couldn't remember her name and I barely recognized her, but she knew so much about me. She told me a tiny bit of her situation and then went on to say that she should have listened to me and should have taken my advise four years ago. (I honestly have no idea what advise I gave her) Anyway it turned into an awesome experience, she and her sister are in two different and two terrible and scary situations, they came to get a blessing from the Bishop. While they were meeting with our Bishop I got to play with the cutest little baby! So fun.

This is a total side note. My friends with babies always tell me how amazed they are that their kids will go to me because they throw fits and start crying for everyone and anyone else besides them. I never believe them, I always feel like they are just saying that to be nice. BUT...I believe it now. This cute 6 month old baby was crying and these girls were passing him around trying to figure out how to calm him down. That was right when I was walking around the corner, I put my things down and said "give me this baby" (haha, I love it!) and basically just took him from the poor girl who was holding him. He got quite immediately and snuggled up to me! Best feeling ever.

Ok back to my story...The girls come out of the Bishop's office with tears in their eyes, we chatted for just a minute cause I needed to get out of there so I could call a friend that was waiting for my call. Get in my car, call Ben, and drive home. I went to Liz's house for a little bit before ward prayer. Went to ward prayer and had an awesome mini lesson from the Bishop and then prayer. The girls came and I chatted for a long time with one of them. It was so nice to talk to this girl because I knew what she needed to hear and I was able to help. She thanked me for a lot of things and started crying, it was so sweet. The Bishop told me later that she had told him that she knew she needed to be at church and her first sign was when she walked in the door I was the first person she saw.

(I'm sure there is a ton more to this story that I'm leaving out, but I'm a little brain dead at the moment.)

It's sad to hear when other people are struggling and having a really hard time coping with life. I feel so blessed and privileged to have these kinds of experiences. You never know who's life you have an impact on and who's watching and listening to you. Hearing about other peoples struggles is a great reminder to count your blessing.

Heavenly Father is defiantly on my side! Today was a good day. It was a little interesting and there was a little more drama than I would have liked but it ended great! I'm ready to take on any challenges that come my way.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Loving and LIVING MY Life

I love these short videos. Something really unexpected and hurtful happened to me last night, and it made me think. I stayed up late and thought about a ton of things. I said a prayer and then I read some scriptures, and I felt peace in my heart, and was completely comforted. I love my life and I can't tell you how grateful I am for every day that I am here on this earth. Though at times I wish I had more money or material things that aren't important, I already have everything I need. I love the Gospel with all of my heart. I love my Savior, Jesus Christ. I love Heavenly Father and the relationship I have with Him. The scriptures are amazing! Even though I still have lots to work on to improve myself and be the person Heavenly Father has sent me here to be, every day is another step forward in the right direction. I was texting a friend (ahh...I totally adore him) the other day and I told him he sounded good and asked if he was happy. He said he was happy and then asked me if I was. I thought for a minute and told him I was, and that is so true. I am happy, and I'm happy to be happy! I know who I am, who I am becoming and where I am going. I love that everyday when I wake up its a new day and another opportunity for me to be better, to do something more. On this new day, I am going to re-group, shake off the hurtful words from last night, put a smile on my face, help someone else, and move on. I am sooooooo grateful for every trial, every disappointment, every heartbreak, because I have learned incredible lessons from every single one of those experiences. I love my life! :D

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


I'm moving to La Jolla in less than two weeks! I decided a few weeks ago that I was going to stay in California for a while, for a lot of good reasons. Right after I made that decision, this opportunity for me to move into a house in the cutest little beach town came up. The girls say they open the windows at night and you can hear the waves crashing on the beach. A girl from work lives two doors down, so we could even carpool if we wanted to save gas. It's closer to where I work and really it's closer to a lot of things, it's a great location. All of the girls in the house (there will be a total of 4 of us) are LDS, and I've heard great things about the ward. I'll still be close to my family so I can go home and go to family functions if I wanted to. We have a hammock in the yard! I'll be just a short walk to the beach.