Saturday, May 9, 2009

Happy Birth Mother's Day to Me

Happy Birth Mother's Day! After I got Brianne and Trevor's e-mail today to wish me a happy birth Mother's day I started thinking. I am so incredibly blessed to be Claire's birth mother. She is the sweetest little girl and she has blessed my life in ways you wouldn't believe! I am so grateful for Trevor and Brianne, I couldn't have asked for more perfect parents for her. I love them so much and I admire and respect them. They have always been so supportive, considerate, thoughtful, and full of love. I am so grateful that I listened and followed the spirit in my adoption process. What an amazing blessing adoption is, for all those who are involved!

I remember when I made the phone call to Brandon to tell him I was pregnant, the first thing he said was "I knew it!". Then we talked more and after a while he said "well there is always adoption" I responded with "uh, no! I could never just give my baby away!". After some research and serious prayer I knew it was more than that and I knew what needed to happen, not just for me but for my baby.

When I was about 15 I started having dreams of Claire. After the first dream I had of her I always knew that she would be my first child. In my dreams she had blonde hair and blue eyes, we would take walks together and just talk and laugh. I knew that she was in Heaven with Heavenly Father just waiting to come down. The times when I was at my lowest of lows the thought of her would pop into my mind and keep me going. I knew that I had a baby girl waiting for me, and that I had to keep going for her so that she could have a chance to come to this earth and live. She couldn't have come at a more perfect time in my life! Sometimes I wonder if my old ways would have ever changed if she would have never came. She saved my life!

I had the opportunity to be with Claire on her birthday this year. She is 3!! I can't and I can believe that she is 3. I remember when I went into labor with her and the day I gave birth like it was just yesterday. At the same time so much has happened in my life in the past 3 years that sometimes it feels like it was forever ago that I had her. Claire makes me smile, and I love that she is so girly! It's fun for me that she is understanding more of who I am, I think its cute that she can say my name and even gets excited to see me. I love her more than she may ever know. She is blessed to have such an amazing family! I am incredibly blessed to be a part of one special little girls life and more importantly that she is a part of mine.


Blogger Trevor and Brianne said...

I'm so glad we met up in L.A. and got to share Claire's birthday together. It is crazy that it has been three years and yet I still remember the details of Claire's adoption so very clearly. We love you!

May 11, 2009 at 8:33 PM  
Blogger Bekah B. said...

I have to be honest with you I started reading this and didn't finish it. But i want to is on my list of things to do :) I just never have time, But i wanted to still write a little note to tell you that I think of you often, your beautiful!

May 11, 2009 at 8:58 PM  

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