a girl can dream...right?

Gets me every time.

Every time I hear or sing this song I get that warm feeling inside, goosebumps on the outside, and tears in my eyes. Every time.
ESPECIALLY if a child is singing this song!

1. I’m trying to be like Jesus;I’m following in his ways.I’m trying to love as he did, in all that I do and say.At times I am tempted to make a wrong choice,But I try to listen as the still small voice whispers,

2. I’m trying to love my neighbor;I’m learning to serve my friends.I watch for the day of gladness when Jesus will come again.I try to remember the lessons he taught.Then the Holy Spirit enters into my thoughts, saying:

Chorus “Love one another as Jesus loves you.Try to show kindness in all that you do.Be gentle and loving in deed and in thought,For these are the things Jesus taught.”

Balance

Life is one big balancing act. The key is finding a healthy balance between everything that goes on in our busy lives. Some months I'm great at this and other months I just plain suck at it. When I start feeling like I'm juggling too many things and I'm spreading myself thin and going crazy trying to do everything I possibly can in a 24 hour day I have to stop and re-group. This is when I have to literally sit down and talk myself through everything, write down a schedule and prioritize my life. Once I've got my priorities straight again, I can move forward calmly, with a new attitude and everything just seems to balance out nicely. I love doing this, and I love that I have the ability to put myself in check every now and then.

Being balanced, organized, and simple makes me happy.

Yum.

Thanks Betty Crocker for this. Totally made my night.

Dirty lil Secret

I'm coming clean.
Out of the closet.
This may shock some of you, but others have already caught on.






I AM ADDICTED TO CHOCOLATE!!



It's actually becoming quite a problem.
Seriously.
The real problem might be that I don't want to give it up!
Chocolate is always there for me through the happy and sad times.
It's a drug, a really great one! Chocolate can make anything better!
I'm in love with CHOCOLATE!
This is terrible for a couple of reasons.

1. addictions period are no good and can lead to other problems. (right?)
2. It's not helping me get my beach body back!!!!!!!!





So, uh I'm going to go grab a Snickers and think about what to do about this little chocolate obsession of mine.

one is the loneliness number...

Do you know this song by the Beatles?


"One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do

Two can be as bad as one, its the loneliest number since the number one

No is the saddest experience you'll ever know

Yes is the saddest experience you'll ever know

cause one is the loneliest number that you'll ever know

one is the loneliest number

even worst then two yeah its just no good anymore since you went away

now I spend my time just making up rhymes of yesterday

one is the loneliest number

one is the loneliest number

one is the loneliest number since you went away"

This song just came to mind as I was thinking about my perfect day yesterday and the conversation I had with a friend.

Lately most of my time has been spent alone. I am not complaining, and I'm not upset or looking for pity. I like my alone time. Sometimes I LOVE my alone time. I need alone time at least once a day. When I used to be really busy, sometimes the only alone time I could get was in the car on my way to work, and I cherished that 15 minute drive. Other times it would just be a quick 5 minute break.

This is a really cool time in my life, I am learning so much and I really feel like every day I am wiser, more mature, and happier than the previous day. I feel incredibly spoiled to be living where I live, to have the things that I do, and to know the people who I know. Life is good.

I can honestly say that I've been having fun doing things by myself. It's easy. It's quiet, and there is something to be said about having quiet moments. It's relaxing and rejuvenating. It does get lonely though from time to time. I went on a hike yesterday with a friend that I hadn't talked to since last summer. He does everything alone. EVERYTHING. I used to always feel bad for him. We had a good talk yesterday as we were hiking up the mountain. He told me that the main reason he started doing things on his own is because people are so noncommittal and flakey. We are all guilty of it, we've all said that we would do something or be somewhere and then we weren't. Sometimes it's not our fault, and circumstances get in the way. I can't stand it when people bail out on me, especially at the last minute. So why do I do it to other people? This is something I'm working on and want to be better at by the end of this year, I don't' want to be known as a flake. My friend said that he just got tired of everyone saying that they would go somewhere or do something with him and then NOT, so he just started doing things alone. We agreed that it is better to live your life and to explore, travel and do the things you want rather then just waiting on someone else to do them with you.

I'm at the point now, where I'm tired of waiting around. Tired of waiting for someone to say yes, for someone to go, for someone to meet me somewhere. It's annoying. Frustrating, and disappointing. This friend of mine that I was talking to has been married before (he's divorced now) so he knows what it's like to have that constant companionship. I know what it's like to have that constant companionship. Most days I wish I had that. A lot of days I miss having someone special around. I think this is good though, it all feels healthy. For probably the first time in my life I don't have this feeling of NEEDING to be with someone, I'm not hooking up with any random guy, I'm not looking for attention. I'm just living my life...alone. Someone will come, he will fall for me and know that I am a catch. The time will come, Heavenly Father has told me so, so for now I'm just trusting Him. I'm trusting in His timing and in the plan he has for me. I'm continually working to be a better person, and to use better use of my time. I feel like I'm so far from my potential, but I am taking steps to get there. I've always been a little bit slower then others, but I always get there.

Cups

I was recently introduced to "Cups", a cupcake lounge! It's in La Jolla, by the cove where all the cute and fun little shops are located. The inside of Cups is pink and oh so very cute! They have a ton of flavors to choose from, all the ingredients are organic and my favorite thing about Cups is that they have GLUTEN FREE cupcakes!!! Very Yummy!

Check out their website -- http://cupslj.com/

SNOWBOARDING!

I finally went snowboarding for the first time. I got a sweet deal from my friend Maren. We went up to big bear at 5am on Saturday and took lessons and snowboarded all day. I love it! I'm not sporty kind of girl, and I never really thought I could be a WINTER sporty kind of girl but it might work. I'm going again soon, I've already talked to a couple of guys who have connections with cabins up in big bear. A weekend trip to snowboard is already in the making.

Game ON...

Here we go again, I'm back in the game. Oh how I love the dating game. Can I just say that I had the BEST two months of nothing but peace and loveliness and total alone time, completely free from MEN. I've literally been a loner and it's so funny because my roommates don't know me very well, and think that being home alone all the time is the norm for me. Bahahaha! A couple of weeks ago I was sitting on the couch in my pj's eating a nice dinner that I cooked for myself and was watching The Wedding Planner. Fiona came home and said "don't you ever go out? do you date at all? Don't you even have a crush on someone? We need to get you out!". One side of me wanted to laugh hysterically in her face and the other side of me kind of, sort of started to feel a little bit pathetic. I didn't say anything though, I just giggled a little bit and said "nope". haha.

Don't get me wrong, I love guys and it's not that I don't want to date, because if I didn't want to I just simply wouldn't go out with anyone. The good news is that during this alone time I have been able to do a little soul searching and figure out a little better about what it is that I want. I'm getting a little bit closer to finding him each time, I can totally feel it. I am so so sooooo grateful for every guy I've dated and had a relationship with, I've learned so much from these guys. Shout out to Brandon, Austin, Jon, and John! I feel like they've helped me the most out of everyone, and I LOVE each of them for it!

Advise I got from my 31 year old roommate last night -- "Get married before you're 30, because once you get out of the YOUNG single adult wards it just gets ugly. There are some WEIRDOS out there, and some real creeps." Amen. I remember my mom telling me similar things from when she was dating again after her and dad got divorced. I'm starting to see the truth in those statements. I went out with a guy who is 35 years old this weekend, first of all I didn't know he was that old, the guy is HOT. Second I'm pretty sure he has a girlfriend that he is LIVING with, no big deal. Sheesh!

Anyway, it's nice being in a new area and meeting new people. So far I've met some really amazing people and I'm grateful for this opportunity to start fresh and make new friends.

In love

I've got summer on my mind. I'm thinking beach, sun, sand, pool, boating, attempting to surf, cruise, cold drinks, pedicures, cute sandals, no makeup, shorts, summer dresses, palm trees, beach and beach! Please look at this adorable one piece bathing suit! Who says you can't be cute and modest? I'm in LOVE with it. It's even got some shimmer to it, who doesn't like to sparkle and shine a lil!?!

I also like this one, I think it would probably be very flattering on.

I FEEL A SHOPPING SPREE COMING ON REAL REAL REEEAAAALLLLLLL SOON! And this, this makes me happy as can be.