Wednesday, May 13, 2009


I cut bangs!! I should have waited till I got a better picture but oh well. So far they are a hit.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Happy Birth Mother's Day to Me

Happy Birth Mother's Day! After I got Brianne and Trevor's e-mail today to wish me a happy birth Mother's day I started thinking. I am so incredibly blessed to be Claire's birth mother. She is the sweetest little girl and she has blessed my life in ways you wouldn't believe! I am so grateful for Trevor and Brianne, I couldn't have asked for more perfect parents for her. I love them so much and I admire and respect them. They have always been so supportive, considerate, thoughtful, and full of love. I am so grateful that I listened and followed the spirit in my adoption process. What an amazing blessing adoption is, for all those who are involved!

I remember when I made the phone call to Brandon to tell him I was pregnant, the first thing he said was "I knew it!". Then we talked more and after a while he said "well there is always adoption" I responded with "uh, no! I could never just give my baby away!". After some research and serious prayer I knew it was more than that and I knew what needed to happen, not just for me but for my baby.

When I was about 15 I started having dreams of Claire. After the first dream I had of her I always knew that she would be my first child. In my dreams she had blonde hair and blue eyes, we would take walks together and just talk and laugh. I knew that she was in Heaven with Heavenly Father just waiting to come down. The times when I was at my lowest of lows the thought of her would pop into my mind and keep me going. I knew that I had a baby girl waiting for me, and that I had to keep going for her so that she could have a chance to come to this earth and live. She couldn't have come at a more perfect time in my life! Sometimes I wonder if my old ways would have ever changed if she would have never came. She saved my life!

I had the opportunity to be with Claire on her birthday this year. She is 3!! I can't and I can believe that she is 3. I remember when I went into labor with her and the day I gave birth like it was just yesterday. At the same time so much has happened in my life in the past 3 years that sometimes it feels like it was forever ago that I had her. Claire makes me smile, and I love that she is so girly! It's fun for me that she is understanding more of who I am, I think its cute that she can say my name and even gets excited to see me. I love her more than she may ever know. She is blessed to have such an amazing family! I am incredibly blessed to be a part of one special little girls life and more importantly that she is a part of mine.